Back to Real Life

School has started again and I'll be honest I don't know how I'm going to do it. I'm still healing and have 14 credits plus my substantive writing to do (thank you 30 page paper). Robert and I staggered our schedules so one of us is with John at all times. It's kind of weird not to go to school with Robert. We've had at least one class together a semester and seen each other during the day but not anymore. I'm tired and in pain and I just want another week to recover. I don't understand why we start school again so soon; other schools get a month off for break and half the professors cancel class the first week because they have to attend the AALS meeting in San Diego. I just want one more week, heck I took finals two weeks after having a baby with an infection and 103* fever - why can't I have one more week? I just want to feel like myself again, I haven't for a long time. Okay enough of the negativity now.

John had a great night Sunday and slept 7 hours. I knew it wouldn't last; the last two nights have not been so good. Yesterday was good. I got the laundry done, cleaned the apartment, watched John, and did my homework. It's going to be a long semester but it will be great to have my JD. It is nice to have other things going on besides poopy diapers and sleepless nights. It's also great to have my brain engaged in something to keep it sharp. Plus, I love the law. I love digging into it and figuring it out and using it to solve problems. Yeah, I know I'm a nerd :) I miss John everyday I'm at school and love going home to see my husband and my baby.

Anyway, John is adorable and loves his floor time more and more, he actually fussed because he wanted to be put down. He now likes his bouncer. At first he would cry when he was in it ( I thought "great we paid how much for something he hates"). I had a ton of laundry to do yesterday and he wouldn't go down for a nap. Whenever I got him to sleep and would put him in his crib he would wake up crying 10 minutes later (It's a good thing he's so cute). I finally put him in the bouncer. He loved it and was good for about 30 minutes. His bounder has a bar overhead with jungle animals hanging from it. He loved watching as they moved. I talked to him while I sorted and started the laundry, made my bed, took a shower, and got some things picked up. It was great. He also purposely smiles. I was getting frustrated because he wouldn't sleep. He looked right in my eyes and smiled at me (baby survival tactic if you ask me) and my heart just melted. He is exercising his voice more and more. He squeals and coos when he has floor time, especially if you talk to him and tickle his stomach. Robert and I are starting to decipher his different cries and getting some of this baby stuff down. John loves to cuddle and sometimes he wakes up and just wants to cuddle.

Happy New Year!